Hey there, sweet souls! It’s Aaron here again with another newsletter.
I am writing this on Tuesday, December 20th (one day after my 30th Birthday on the 19th and one day prior to the Winter Solstice, the 21st) and this will be sent out on 12/22/22. Now, y’all know I don’t do “the math” and I won’t touch a calculator (those are the Devil’s tools!) but those numbers seem very cool and synchronous to me!
I’ve been reflecting a lot lately on what I want to manifest during my 30’s while appreciating all that I have learned, accomplished, and lost throughout my 20’s.
I feel so lucky and blessed by Spirit to have what and who I have in my life. I have learned (and continue to do so) to set boundaries with my “blood family” and communicate and spend time with the ones who are near and dear to me, while appreciating the others from afar. I have learned that friends, real friends, my “tribe” of Soul Sisters only want to see me happy and healthy and I wish the same for them. I honestly feel that I am at a much higher vibrational frequency now than I was at 20 (Thank Goddess for that!) As it means I am growing, emotionally maturing even more, and I am so excited to see what this next decade holds, specifically in regards to developing my intuition.
I have got to get my ass WRITING, y’all! I want to experiment more with oracle cards, intuitive poetry writing for people, and most likely taking some Reiki and Witchcraft courses to learn how to better incorporate and integrate those into my life.
The other night, I woke up around 4am and could not go back to sleep. I felt as though I was supposed to take that time for myself, that spirit wanted to communicate something to me. I’m sure no one is shocked to hear that I got my phone, plugged in my headphones and started to watch Joanna The Healer’s newest YouTube video! I chose Pile 3 and the message hit me to my core, so I began to feel overwhelmed and opened up the note pad on my phone while she was channeling her message for this pile – for me – for us, and I began to write everything that was coming up for me.
The biggest message was one that worked in tandem with something I read in an essay by Jonathan Franzen from the 1990’s, wherein he writes, “There’s a second kind of reader. There’s the social isolate – the child who from an early age felt very different from everyone around him….People don’t like to admit they were social isolates as children. What happens is that you take that sense of being into an imaginary world. But that world, then, is a world you can’t share with the people around you – because it’s imaginary. And so the important dialogue in your life is with the authors of the books you read. Though they aren’t present, they become your community” (Why Bother?, Pg. 77) and he continues by noting, “Simply being a “social isolate” as a child does not, however, doom you to bad breath and poor party skills as an adult. In fact, it can make you hypersocial. It’s just that at some point you’ll begin to feel a gnawing, almost remorseful need to be alone and do some reading – to reconnect to that community” (Pg. 77).
WOW. Spot on. I realized that what I haven’t prioritized much at all in my 20’s is time – time away from everyone and just with myself (and my writing or a good book) – just to be with myself and my thoughts because I have my community now – my family and friends, blood and chosen, who are amazing and support me and are not going anywhere. In my 20’s, I identified that I have a “need to feel needed.” All along, it’s always been me that needs me the most.
So, I am going within. I am isolating more for myself because I deserve to (in healthy doses). I am wintering, and I hope that you do the same for yourself soon too. Our relationships with ourselves is one of the most important communities we will ever have.
Cheers and so much love during this time of year, sweet ones.
<3 – Aaron